End of First Semester, Christmas Time
I’m home once again, after four months in the chilly and now snowy Boston. It feels nice, a feeling of being comfortable and cleanliness that was definitely missing at college. I have my orchids on my desk again, all the familiar objects in my house unmoved, and finally a comfortable bed again. And oh, 70 degree weather.
On the other hand, disappointing grades put something of a damper on the holiday spirit, but there’s nothing to be done about it, except trying harder and developing better study habits for the next semester, which I promise to myself to receive all A/A-…which is hard I suppose, given the school. Sigh. Where’s the grade inflation?!
First semester at college definitely changed my perspective on life in several ways, mainly that I see success (whatever that meant) as less important than being happy and fulfilled in life. Life is too short to be filled with unnecessary stress over the unimportant, or to care about those things that can only lead to resentment or bitterness. Of course, I’m going to continue to strive for the best grades possible, and for a top law school, but perhaps with less expectation of becoming the greatest person of all time. Generally my sense of self-worth has been deflated to a certain extent, although I won’t deny that I can probably come off as arrogant at times (even though I think it’s just self-confidence…); this I attribute to the massive number of people smarter than me at school. Sigh.
So has college so far been life-changing? Well, it’s changed me, undoubtedly, but I like to think that I’m essentially the same person. Shrug.